Pilgrimage of a modern day by RyuuAnima, literature
Literature
Pilgrimage of a modern day
It happened in our year of Twenty and Seven,
Four pilgrims and I went to a version of Heaven.
For there, in that place that we were heading,
A fate lay before us that no one was dreading.
Though our plans were different, we all journeyed forth,
We would stay together, for all it twas worth.
So we did head to this hallowed place,
At the anime con we would show our face.
My companions numbered but four,
Twould be too expensive with one person more.
So into our metal chariots did we alight,
And took off to California that hot summers night.
Far from Vermont would we have to travel,
Hoping our dreams would never un
After conquering the game of World of Warcraft, the level 70 player, known to his companions only as Hrothgar, Elite Champion of Role Playing Games., decided to found a great forum. Thus, after a month of near-solid coding, Hrothgar had found a server host, and founded the forum, which he called Warcraft Drive. His 30 terabyte server became known to his beloved forum goers as Herot.
But one forum goer was jealous of Hrothgars mad skills at World of Warcraft, and took his vengeance swiftly. The forum goer, known only as Grendel the Cold-hearted, hacked into the server Herot,
They say you shouldnt
Be yourself
You have to
Fit in with the crowd,
Dont be loud.
You have to
Be just like
Everyone else,
Cant make a fuss
When youre in a rush.
Cant be wearing
Your own clothes
Have to keep up
With the Jones.
But I ask why,
Why arent we free,
To be who we
Want to be.
Have to meet the
Standards of today,
Cannot face things
Your own way.
Why do we have to
All be the same
Cant object,
Or you lose the game.
So tired of living
At this pace,
Dont see why
Were stuck in
This rat race.
No ones content,
Despite what they show,
Being like other
Can you see what Im going through?
Can you see whats behind these eyes?
Can you see Ive fallen for you?
Can you see Ive fallen for your lies?
Never look back,
Never look forward,
Whats coming for me,
Ive never looked toward.
Envy and love are my driving forces,
As I am put through my courses.
Why I cant see past my anger,
Is because shes in love with you.
What is summer?
I hear you ask.
Its lying on the beach
While in the sun you bask.
Its the dripping of an ice cream
On a hot and sticky day,
And the laughter of children
Who, on vacation, play.
Summer is the crickets
Chirping every night,
Heading out to Grandmas
And your rockets maiden flight.
Summer is always lounging
In the sun or in the shade,
No matter where you stay
In summer you have it made.
Summer is the season
Where all is good and fun,
And it makes a child
Out of each and everyone.
Summer is the time of year
When everything goes right,
So relax and have some fun,
And stay up la
I wish to be alone now,
All by my foolish self.
So that I may discover how
My heart is on a shelf.
I've never understood the world,
Because i stand alone,
My dreams will never be unfurled
Buried 'neath my heart of stone.
I know i shall never fit in,
Amongst these happy souls.
The way I live must be a sin,
No love, no hope, no goals.
I can never belong here,
In this world so bright,
But to find someone dear
I'll try with all my might.
Who am I?
Where am I from?
What path am I
Following, and where
Will it lead me?
No memories,
No family.
How can I tell
Whether you're my enemy?
I don't know
What happened.
All I can tell is that
I've lost someone
Dear to me.
When will I find
Where I belong?
Till then, I must
Try and stay strong.
You fought for my future,
While I am trapped in now.
Could we ever meet again?
You have no idea how.
As I did then,
I love you still.
Shall we meet?
I pray we will.
You'll live nigh forever;
While I must someday die.
Of you I hope
To catch a glimpse
In another worlds
Night sky.
I am the silent observer,
The one who never speaks.
I keep my thoughts inside me,
All throughout the week.
When the time comes,
I will break down,
And then I start to cry.
I know that those around me
Wish that away I'd fly.
Some day, from this I will be free,
And as a freak,
None shall consider me.
If only I could be released,
I know that I would be
at
peace.
Magic and technology
That is how I came to be.
Livin' a new life,
In my dreams,
Wish I knew
What it means.
Made for a weapon
Never had a hope.
Rebelled against my maker
Making my purpose
To free myself
From this shackled life.
We're not them, we never were.
Don't judge us by whatever
They have done.
Tryin' to be ourselves
And finding out who that is.
Not worth livin'
'mongst these fools
I've realized
all we are is tools
Free will taken
by society
I'm screamin'
Why don't they
Hear me?
Say what they want
And you'll be safe
They make us move
at too fast a pace
They say to share
your own mind
Then punish you
Say it's a crime
All these sheep
In hypnosis sleep
All our minds
We cannot keep
I cannot stand
one more day
now let me
fall
a
w
a
y
.
.
.
A single day
A single life
All of it
So filled with strife
I cannot keep
Up this pace
As I'm trapped
Within this race
The make me rush
Far too fast
This mortal flesh
Isn't made to last
As as I cry
Myself to sleep
One side of me
Begins to weep
One side becomes damp
With tears I
Dare not shed
The other rests
upon my bed
One side a mask
For the world
The other mask,
Emotions whirl
But no mask shows
My true self,
Her, I keep
upon a shelf
Stored for the day
That I meet
the one true me
But now I wonder
Will it ever be?
Do you know who you are
Do you know who you will be
Look inside the mirror
Ask "Who am I?"
"Is this me?"
The world gives us
A brand new face
Then throws us into
It's endless race
What is the point
We cannot fight
Now let me fall
Into the night
Open the door into the shadows
Open the door into your mind
When you look inside your soul
Do you know what you will find?
Can you see torments past?
Can you see your future self?
Do you see hope eternal
Could you see yourself looking back?
When you look through that door
Then you know theres no turning back.
Livin' in a dream world
Thinkin' I can stop it
Can't anyone see
That I'm fallin'
Don't fake sympathy
Not somethin that I need
Don't try to understand
I'm in my own land
Slippin' further everyday
Just want you to go away
Buildin' up my rage
Every time a new page
I can't find myself
Left my soul upon a shelf
Don't know the true me
That you think you see
No hope left here
That you hold so dear
Fallin' deeper in the abyss
Now I know I won't be missed
Watchin' my mind slippin' down
Seein' it shatter on the ground
Ain't nothin left for me
Nothin' good that I can see
Sorrow tears and blood rain fall
Should I see to end it a
Can't keep up this half-life
Living in my own shadow
Everybody wants me to be
The little girl who once was me
I'm fadin' away fast
That little girl wasn't made to last
And I wonder why can't they see
They're fightin' so hard to change me
I'm not one of them
No, I never was
When they talk all I'm hearing
"Why can't she be
Calm and sweet
Fit right in
It's no sin"
All of them try to mould my soul
Then wonder why it falls apart
Expect me to understand
Inside and out
Answers to far from my outstretched hand
Already at the edge of my souls land
Should I reach further I willl slip
Send me on one
final
I feel the shadows
Reaching through me
Feel my freedom
Slipping away
I see myself doing these things
Yet I'm powerless to stop
Trapped by a figment of my mind
My soul is fading fast
My anger will destroy all of them
And leave none of me
It searches for it's freedom
And tosses mine away
I thought I'd never be it's slave again
After what happened that day
Now I know that all along
My body was my angers pawn
The end is near
I no longer fear
Let the Pharoah claim his power
And crumble my life's tower
The hatred gone,
It won't be long
upon this faithful hour.
Shadows and games,
dragons and theives,
Anger and fear,
The end is now near.
Torment of shadows
Shall swallow the light.
Woe shall fall upon
All those who fight.
Horses and fruit,
Love and the streets,
The darkness destroys
All that it meets.
None shall escape
This ancient rage
Their lives shall be
Just another page.
The dragon of power
May only fall on the hour.
None know where from
Victory may come.
Let the chosen survive
The weak fall away.
Destruction of Ra
One fateful day.
Should the day ever come,
Let joy commence.
But should mankind fall
Let the record
Rest.
The Secret Life of... er, Moi. by RyuuAnima, literature
Literature
The Secret Life of... er, Moi.
It was six o'clock, and I was watching the news over my dinner. The current story was about a house that had caught on fire. A little girl had been trapped inside, but one of the firemen had gone in and rescued her. The camera cut to a scene of the house, fully engulfed.
… I was walking home. A fire truck zoomed by me, sirens wailing. I followed after it, wondering what was going on. The apartment building down the street had caught on fire. I overheard one of the people who had escaped saying that a baby was still up on the top floor. I rushed past the hose trucks to the inferno. As I ran inside, the flames bent away from me, avoiding me.
I need an outlet for my pathetic rants. Since I don't have any plans for showing this account to my therapist, I'll post it here.
copy-pasted from the El Goonish Shive forums.
I've been bullied since at least second grade. At first it was just this one kid who nobody likes, and he was awful. But in fifth and sixth grade, the first two years of Middle School, my elementary school and about three smaller elementary schools were lumped to together in one big middle school. There were a bunch of jerks there that still torment me to this day. They were always saying something like they had run over a cat last night, loud engouh that I could hear